Yesterday Brad and I went to see this movie. It was so great. I cried and sobbed. My heart ached for knowing that this was a true story that a little boy lived through all this and that the father had the perseverance to stick with it. I think in Nursing school we had to work a whole semester at a mission and that with this movie has made me feel so grateful.
Recently as alot of you know, we made an adult decision. We had tax money and such. We were going to take a vacation and go to Disneyland. I think we made our first real true adult-responsible decision. We could have taken the trip, spent the money and more but left in a rut with our debts still there. We decided to pay off some debts and get caught up on regular bills. See we are planning on having a baby this year. Most of you know that brings us great anxiety but joy. With all of that come along the fear, the challenge, and the Happyness.For us that means, Kristine on bed rest and a baby most likely in the hospital. I have lost 20 lbs ( and still trying to lose more) and am taking all the precautions but that also means all the fears. The doctors think we will probably still go early but just not as early as Peyton. They are going to monitor me closer, use the arsenal of drugs if needed.
As I watched this movie, I am thankful for my house, my family, my job, my education, and most of all my God for giving me all these things. Not that I have not struggled or had challenges but that God gave me the strength and courage to handle them and us handle them together. I look at my 4 year old miracle every day and think how blessed I am. I pray and hope you will pray for us as we attempt to have another miracle by the grace of God. I pray to not have the fear and anxiety because of my knowledge. I need to hand it over to the Lord and know he is in control and ultimately controls our future and destiny. I want to be prepared the best we can with his help financially to be able to stay on bed rest or be off work to take care of a new fragile baby. I want to be able to have peace with our decisions and the inner peace to know everything is going to be OK. I am going to be switching to nites the end of May at the hospital to see if that will help with my blood pressure and stress at work. I pray that he ultimately guides us in all the decisions in the next year. Thanks be to God for all his wisdom, guidance, and control.
PS there is a blizzard outside I will post some pictures ....
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